It feels so good to finally close a chapter in your life, let go and decide to move on and let that from the past be just that, the past.Especially when you kept looking back, going back.10 years is a very long time to hold on.......

So you feel like a hero for closing the door on a chapter in your life that has ruled you ever since you were so so young,too young as some would say,one you thought was 4ever.

You take the time to self-congratulate for not having gone on to self-destruct because your world fell apart, for having lived through the unbelievable heat and intensity all over again to the point where you thought this time around you wouldnt make it through. So much that you got on your knees and prayed:
"Lord,are you going to let me walk trough this hell one more time?I know you wouldnt,or would you? Because this time around I dont know where am gonna find the strength to see me through:I used it all up......" But made it, again.

You admire your own steely nerve for having seen you through the hardest times you will never live through again, and are in awe of yourself for coming out of the nerve wracking business still sane,and maybe(hopefully)even more sane.You just cant believe you did it.

You believe you have to be the strongest person you know of for having done your very best to hold together the pieces even though you thought they would never mend to be whole again.You must be a hero.

Then you take the time to savour the bliss of freedom.If you'd only known before that being free from all the consuming emotions feels so heavenly, you would have broken free a long long long time ago.No more long and sleepless nights,through with all the drama,no more sky highs followed by ditch lows,stability is the new order of the day.

Its a great feeling, this new found feeling.Its peace even if its not love.Its power even if its not passion.Its growth,thats what it is.Its transition,the product of time.

The only down point is:you've been to the mountain peak,been to the sea's deepest point,what will it take to make you believe again?What can replace the best part of the story,that story of a lifetime?